Day 4 - Communication

I've been experiencing a point of uncomfortableness within communication with other beings within my physical reality. After investigating this within asking the question 'why is it that I feel uncomfortable within communication?', I saw how within my mind I have assigned value-judgments to each and every single person within my reality. So it's like each person has a place-holder within my mind, and on top of these holders I have places labels as markers according to how I judge myself to/towards that person as either seeing myself as inferior to them or superior to them in any way. Both these polarities have different play outs which do not support me or the other within any given moment, therefore they are completely unacceptable. However, merely saying that they are unacceptable, and then still going on to live, move, communicate within these mind-determined paths of judgment will only reinforce my further enslavement to the mind-programs which I have existent within me (which are clearly sitting in the driver's seat of my life, where they are directing me instead of me directing myself).

This point has been going on for a while now, and I have thus far just 'swept it under the rug' , which has only allowed for the accumulation of this mind-mess to the point where I have desired to never have to move myself within communication again. This obviously shows that I have created and manifested a point of great resistance to the act of simple communication, and further shows that all I am doing within allowing myself to participate within this resistance is that I am in fact avoiding the act of actually stopping myself to take a look at what I am facing within communication as that which I do not want to take responsibility for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior to a being to whom I have assigned a label of 'superiority' based on the judgment I have placed on them as being 'more developed within their process of self-change'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as inferior to another based on my participation within thoughts of comparison.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior to a being to whom I have assigned a label of 'inferiority' based on the judgment I have placed on them as being 'less developed within their process of self-change'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as superior to another based on my participation within thoughts of comparison.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist communication with another because of my awareness of the fact that I have tainted my communication with a being due to my participation within thoughts of comparison to/towards a being, instead of realizing that I am able to stop and re-direct myself to applying a solution whereby I investigate each point of separation individually and apply self-forgiveness as well as script out and live a correction to each individual point of separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hide form taking responsibility for that which I see existent within me which does not support life in any way whatsoever. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone the act of taking responsibility for that which I see requires self-direction within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself and another by/through assigning place holders according to my judgments towards myself/another within my mind and to then have allowed myself to live in accordance to these mind-determined placements.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my opportunities for expansion through not having accepted and allowed myself to participate with another equally outside the parameters of my mind-reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from another in any way whatsoever through my participation within thoughts of judgment to/towards myself/the other within the design of comparison.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself through fear of what other will think of me if I were to change the way in which I communicate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the thought of 'what will others think of me if I were to change' as a justification for continuing to exist in patterns which I know are bullshit and do not serve and support me/another in any way as being able to stand as an expression of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perpetuate the systems of abuse which are consequential outflows of comparison and judgment within this world, by/though allowing myself to entertain thoughts of judgment and comparison within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as separate from those around me and to have within this judged myself as inferior to everyone based on my mind-participations of self-abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the sound of my voice as being too low and 'manly', within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into thoughts of self-judgment and an energetic experience of wanting to hide as well as frustration when and as I become aware of the sound of my voice when I am speaking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the sound of my voice through self-judgments based on comparing my voice to that of other women within the belief that my voice should be more high pitched instead of being so deep and low.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go so far within this separation to the point where I deliberately try not being aware of the sound of my voice. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this as a coping-mechanism which I use for the purpose of hiding behind instead of facing the core points which I have accepted and allowed myself separate myself from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'duck and dive' around the actual core points in relation to why I feel uncomfortable within communication, instead of realizing that I am able to direct myself into a new expression within communication through opening the points up and facing myself within what the core points reflect back to me as points which I have not taken responsibility for yet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my daily opportunities of expansion within participation with others in my physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be moved by my mind value-judgments when and as I walk past or see a specific being within my physical reality, where I allowed myself to go into an energetic experience of inferiority or superiority when and as I walk past or see a specific being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the act of stopping and taking full self-responsibility for the way in which I communicate and experience myself within communication.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I see a point for what it is, that this is enough, instead of realizing that unless I investigate each point of separation existent within myself in detailed specificity and move myself to apply self-forgiveness and live a correction, that my thoughts and behavior patterns will override any intention I have of changing.

I commit myself to being aware of all thoughts of judgment which arise within me when/as I communicate and participate with another within my physical reality and I commit myself to writing out each point in detailed specificity so that I am able to see how the pattern works as well as its point of origin and then to self-forgive the point and to live a correction which stands within the principle of being what is best for all when and as I am faced with the same point again.

I commit myself to not allowing fear to direct me as I test out new supportive ways of communicating outside the patterns which I have been applying thus far within my life.

I commit myself to stand equal to another within communication and to actively stop any thoughts of separation which come forth as my pre-programmed patterns.

I commit myself to seeing each point of interaction with another as an opportunity for expansion within a process of inversion through which I take the points which arise from the interaction and reflect them back to myself to see that which I have not yet taken responsibility for and then to simply take responsibility for it. Within this I am grateful for any/all points which present themselves to me through another being within communication as I realize that without others reflecting me back to me, I would not be able to see myself as what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as.

I commit myself to embrace each opportunity of communication with another and to participate equally without separating myself from the communication by participating within thoughts which lead to an energetic experience of inferiority/superiority.

I commit myself to stop hiding behind thoughts of 'how I should act, speak, sound' within communication with another, but to instead assist myself by bringing myself back here to the physical where I participate within communication outside my mind limitations as thoughts.

I commit myself to take responsibility for myself to change myself into a living being instead of continuing to exist as a pre-programmed personality system of abuse.


I will be sharing further writings about this point of communication within blogs to come, as I can see that I have merely only scratched the surface here of what I see is existent within me regarding this point, as all of the layers I have created in relation to communication.


Art Work by Anna Brix Thomsen